the vault

Helpless in Loving You 

Babe, for every drop of rain that falls, I wish that you could see that I can't help but be helpless in loving you.
You always brought the best out of me, even when I was down, and when I was away, you made me feel like I was home with you.
Times will never be so true, when those times that we spent alone.

Nicky looked up from his paper, where he was writing his latest song, and he took a glance at the TV. He watched as the news came on, he saw a familiar name on the screen. He gulped, one of the presumed missing in a ferry crash. He sat there, watching in horror, as the survivors and those who had drowned. It had been 6 months since he'd seen her, since she went back to London, on her whirlwind career path of TV presenter. She was a little older than him, but he was in love with her, from a distance. He was coming off a lengthy relationship with Georgina Aherne so he didn't want to seem as he was the flirty type.

I wish you could come down and see what life is like without you, and heal my breaking heart. 
For you were the wind in my hair, the sparkle in my eyes, and the soft touch to my face at night.
So don't forget me, as you guide me through life, for I was your love, and you were my soul.

Nicky remembers the day in which they first met, it was at a society ball, in Dublin, she was a up and coming tv presenter, and he was introduced to her, and they spent the night chatting, and socializing like two lost souls reunited. And now she was clinging hopelessly to life, or had she moved on already.
He rang his friend who worked on her TV station for any news.
"Nicky, it's too early to tell, if Eilidh's survived, but the weather's shite now, so I think that they are calling the search off." He said.
"Nathan, please, if you get any news about her, please let me know!" Nicky said, sighing.
"Nicky, of course I will. " Nathan said.

As day turns to night, and as I lay in my bed. The thoughts of you keep rushing back to make me helpless in loving you.
 From the day we met, till the day you were gone, those moments we shared will go on and on.
For all is now gone, and I'm all alone, I wish I had your heart to carry me on. 

Every time the phone rang, Nicky's heart jumped.
"Nicky, it's Nathan. They found her, she's at the Dublin Hospital, and I'm just on my way over there to get the latest. If I was you, I'd stay where you are, we don't want the media catching wind of you and Eilidh, I ring you if I get any news."
"Nath, if you get to see her, tell her that I'm thinking of her."
"Will do" Nathan said, ringing off.

May you watch over me at night, as I sleep and banish the bad thoughts that hinder my sleep, 
and when I awake from my nightly slumber, turn gray skies to blue, and make it brand new?

With you I feel safe, and all my worries just vanish, and now all I'm left with is the memory of you.

"Nicky," Nathan said, 5 hours later.
"Nathan, don't tell me its over, it cant be over, I didn't get the chance to say what I needed to say, and now she's gone forever."
"Nicky, I'm sorry, she never recovered from the crash, and she went peacefully."
"Thanks again"

Staring at the very empty space, that you once were in,
Seeing memories of you singing off key, and dancing like Ronan.
You always made me laugh,
But those times are gone.

'With regret and sadness, Eilidh has passed away as result of the Ferry Crash. We will be replaying some of Eilidh's best moments today for the entire show.' said Michael.
Nicky started crying and couldn't watch the clips, but then he saw something that made him smile, the day he was interviewed on the show. He remembered that they didn't stop staring at each other throughout the show.

Gone are the days we shared, the moments we once cherished; now theres only past memories, 
but it's the only thing that keeps me from losing it.
God, I miss you like hell.

Helpless in loving you, that what I am, and forever I will be helpless in loving you.