A Fragile Heart
Part 3 Part 4
‘Welcome to Passengers arriving from Hong-Kong on flight SQ134’ the voice on the overhead speaker said.
They were here. I stood there, watching the screen, waiting for them to come into view. I could see Shane, Mark, and Kian. Then Bryan and Nicky came into view. The fans around me started screaming. I couldn’t breathe, I felt really hot. I told Fee that I was going outside for some fresh air.
I walked outside and sat on the bench. What was wrong with me? I sat there, thinking about everything. I was so caught up in my thoughts, that I didn’t see Nicky approaching me.
"Hey, are you ok?" he said.
"I'm not really sure!" I said.
"I saw you going outside, you didn’t look too happy, so I thought I’d come and see what was wrong."
"Thanks Nicky! I guess it was a bit warm in there, and with all the noise in there."
"I was worried about you. I mean after the last time we met, you were standing in the rain, looking like you had survived the Titanic."
"Yeah, true! I shouldn’t have come this time though!"
"Why?"
"I’m not really sure, I guess I came for the chance to see you once again, though I thought you’d forget who I was."
"I would never forget you, you are the most interesting person, I’ve ever met. I meet fans who come across as over-obsessive and you can tell from a mile away, they want you cos you’re famous and in westlife, but with you, you don’t want the famous me, you prefer the normal me."
"That’s so true. When I see you, I don’t see you as a big celebrity, I see you as a ordinary guy, who’s in a band, having a laugh!"
"I better get back, the lads are probably wondering where I am."
"Yeah, same. I better go too. what hotel are you at?"
"The same one as last time, and you?"
"Well, I’ll see you around the hotel. How is it, we end up at the same hotel building? I live in one of the apartments #432!"
I waited for him to go back inside, before I went back in.
"Eil, you alright? I saw Nicky walking quickly outside right after you left. Did you two talk??" Fee said, as I returned to where she was standing.
"Yeah, I don’t really want to talk about it." I said, with a sorry expression.
"Oh?"
"Sorry Fee, I just don’t feel like talking at the moment."
"I understand. Me and Ally are going for something to eat, you want to come?"
"Sure, it might help taking my mind off things."
After spending lunch with Fee and her sister, I headed back to the hotel. I just wanted to be on my own that afternoon. I had a lot on my mind, things I needed to sort out.
What was it about Nicky that made me feel like this. I only felt like this, when I was watching him on TV, singing, talking, and sitting there. Every little thing he did, made me feel like this.
I sat there, trying to make sense of it all. It all came to one thing, that I truly, madly deeply loved Nicky. I couldn’t tell anyone about how I felt, they wouldn’t understand, they would tell me to forget him, he’s taken. but I could never forget him&ldots;