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Eilidh's POV

I went to bed, feeling really tired. I slept okay, except for the bad dream, about being witness to a very serious car-crash…I woke up in a fright. I looked at the clock.. 3.30am…I got up and made a Milo, and then went back to bed…still shocked by the realness of the dream, I sat there thinking about Nicky…and about his problems…
I fell back asleep and awoke later on, I got up, and made some brekkie, and logged online… that was weird, no messages from Nicky… I was worried, it wasn’t like him to not e-mail before he went to bed…one of my mates were on…
Disco_diva: Eilidh, Have you heard??
Irisheyes 4 me: heard what???
D: its Nicky. He’s in hospital, he was in this car-crash, they don’t think he’ll make it…he’s pretty bad, apparently!
I: OMG, no….
D: some one posted an e-mail to the lists…
I: he’s gotta pull through…he has to….
D: Eilidh, are you alright?
I: Nope, if Nicky dies, he won’t be resting in peace…he was worried about things…
D: Huh?
I: Oh bugger, I didn’t tell you that I wrote a letter to Nicky.
D: You did? And?
I: Me and him have been e-mailing and messaging each other for a few days now ever since he got my letter…
D: when did you hear from him last?
I: Last night our time…I should have stayed online, then he wouldn’t have gone out, and he would be alive still….
D: don’t go blaming yourself for it…
I: Fee, last night I had a dream that I was in this car-crash…it was so real…
D: Real, maybe you were there in spirit…
I: God, I hope he doesn’t die…I don’t want him to…
D: I’ve gotta go…if I find out anything, I’ll e-mail ya…Okies…keep smiling…
I: Thanks Fee,

I logged off, so depressed by the fact, that Nicky was in hospital, fighting for his life…
I felt like crying, and that’s what I did…and pray to god that Nicky didn’t deserve to be taken away so soon..

I sat there in my room, on my couch, just looking into space…my flatmates weren’t home, so I was by myself…
I kept asking myself why???
I lay down, still crying…I must have fallen asleep, and I was dreaming or so I thought…
I could hear a voice talking to me…
“Eilidh, I’m here in spirit…I’m pretty bad…I don’t know if I’ll make it through the night” said Nicky, appearing like an angel who’s not got their wings yet in a bright glow…
“Nicky, please make it through…I couldn’t bare to lose a friend like you…”
“I’m not sure…”
“Nicky, if you leave, you’re leaving with all those problems that you didn’t sort out…you’ll be an unsettled soul…wishing you sorted out everything before you died…”
“Eilidh, I know, but I’m so weak at the moment, my heart is so weak, and the doctors reckon I’ve got only a 50% chance of pulling through…”
“Nicky, I’m gonna jump on a plane and come to Dublin…”
“What will that do?? “
“I’ve no idea, but I just want to be close to you…cos I don’t want you to die…”
“Everyone has to die, at some point…it’s my turn now, apparently…”
“No…”

A few days later, I was sitting on the aeroplane…flying into Dublin, I had no idea what I was doing there, but I hoped that being in the same country as Nicky might be helpful…
I didn’t tell anyone the real reason I went, I just said that I was gonna visit a sick friend!!! No one suspected that it was Nicky…
I got out of Dublin Airport…I needed to find a place to stay…I was wondering how I could find some?? When a girl approached me.
“Excuse me,” she said, “Your name wouldn’t be Eilidh by any remote chance?”
“Yes, it is…” I said, puzzled.
“Oh my god, I’m Gillian, Nicky’s sister…”
“oh Hi, how did you know I was here?”
“Nicky came to me in my dream, and told me…”
“How is he btw?”
“Still in a coma…I told my mam and dad about you, and how you’re a friend of Nicky’s…have you got a place to stay, as there’s room at my flat…”
“Thanks, I haven’t got anywhere to go yet…”
“Let get going…I’m gonna see Nicky later, if you want to come you can…”
“I’d like that, but won’t his girlfriend be there?”
“No, she’s in Boston, she knows that he’s in hospital, but she wont come home, too busy or something…”
“If I was Nicky’s girlfriend, I’d be on the next plane to Dublin, and be by his bedside…”
“Yeah, I know, but they’ve been fighting lately…I don’t think she’s keen on the relationship anymore…”

As Gillian drove us to her flat, we didn’t talk, I think we both were thinking about the same thing…Nicky
We dropped off my bags, and headed to the hospital…I suddenly felt scared, like I shouldn’t be doing this…but I had to…if he died, I’d be happy knowing that I got the chance to say goodbye and kiss him for the first and the last time…

As we walked down the ward to his room…I felt as if he was walking beside me…I wanted to turn to him, but I knew that he wasn’t there…
Gillian let me go in by myself. He was lying there, covered with tubes, and bandages…I sat down beside him, staring at his face, all bruised…I couldn’t believe that it was him, it seemed like a different person…
I held one of his hands, it felt cold, but not stone cold…
“Nicky, I’m here, I don’t know if you can hear me, but I’m here…I came cos I didn’t want to miss saying goodbye to you…”
I started crying, I couldn’t believe that I was sitting in the same room as Nicky, yet he didn’t know that I was there…
Gillian came in,
“Eilidh, I think we should go, Georgina’s on her way up, one of the nurses saw her coming in the lift…I don’t want her to find you in here…”
“Thanks” I said, leaning over Nicky, to give him one final kiss…

We walked out, and saw Georgina who was walking towards us, me and Gillian spilt up, so it wouldn’t look as though we knew each other…I kept walking, while Gillian spoke to Georgina. She soon caught up with me…
“I didn’t think she’ll show up…she’s taking it better than I was expecting…” she said, as we waited for the lift.
“You mean, she all calm, and collected, instead of being tearful, and worried..”
“Yeah, I mean she’s his girlfriend, and she’s not crying, or feeling guilty or anything…”
“Weird, he looked so bad, can anyone recover from those injuries?”
“I dunno, I want him to, though, I couldn’t bare losing my brother like that…he’s got a whole life in front of him to live for..”
“Gill, I know how you feel, even though I’ve only known him since last Wednesday, I feel like I’ve known him all my life…”
“Eilidh, I hope you don’t mind me saying this, but I think you and Nicky must have known each-other in a previous life…”
“How’s that?”
“I don’t know, its just the way Nicky was, when he got your letter, holding it close to himself, as though its was very valuable, and he didn’t want to let it go…”
“Gill, I just wish he was awake, and not in a coma…”
“yeah, I know, hold on…”
We hadn’t got to Gill’s car in the car park, when her phone suddenly rang…
“Hi Mam, what? Real? We’ve just in the car park, we’ll wait for you, before we go back up…see ya soon” Gill said, closing her mobile.
“That was my Mam, Nicky’s awake…the nurses noticed his eyes open,” she said, smiling.
“So Georgina was there when he woke, “ I said, deflated.
“Mam said that the nurse says he’s by himself, there’s no sign of Georgina…she must have sneaked out the back or something…”
Soon Nicky’s mam’s car was driving into the car park, and parked right beside Gill’s car.
“Mam, this is Eilidh,” Gill said, as we walked back into the hospital.
“Eilidh, Its so nice to meet you.”
“Yeah, same!” I said.